U, I had thought I would have sufficient words for this e-mail. But now when I’m putting them down, I find myself blank. I’ve decided not to beat around the bush, not to play with words and just be direct and to the point. It is over…everything we had for last one year. After having thought about each and every little aspect of my and your life, I’ve finally come up to the conclusion that there is no “us”. We are never going to make a sound life together. We are too different to understand each other. I’m writing this e-mail in all my senses and I take complete responsibility of my words here. So please, do not take it as a joke or something that I would declare afterwards, meaningless. I mean each and every word of it. If you ask me if I love you or not…I would say I never knew what love was. I still do not know. And I guess, I do not believe in it. I misunderstood, misjudged and misspelled my feelings for you, to be love. It wasn’t love. I do not love you, U. I can never love you. I tried to get along but you are not my kind and I am not yours. I can never be happy with you which, would eventually make both of us unhappy. There is no chance of us being together…so please let go and try to forget me. I suggest, you should agree to whatever your mother asks of you. She’d be delighted and content, and so would you be. And mark my words…five years from now, you’d be laughing over all this. I just hope this time, for the first time in your life, you’d act maturely. There is no use of running after me because let me assure you that the more you’re going to run after me, the more I’m going to run away from you. I hope you’d understand me this time and will not create any problem for me or for yourself. Please, do not try to find me or contact or do anything stupid. This would be the only thing I’d ask from you, in return of whatever good I’ve ever been to you. I’ve already had enough and now I want peace in my life. And you’re going to ruin it if you try anything stupid. Plus, you’re not going to change my mind or for that matter, change anything by trying to contact me or being persistent. U, at last I would once again tell you…it is over! And I want to be very clear in this regard. There is nothing left between us. I do not have anything in my heart. All of my feelings have vanished or faded away. I do not regret anything that I wrote in this e-mail. I mean it. I’m not angry or mad at you. I’m very cool and calm at the moment. I wanted to do it on phone. But I have experienced it earlier as well…that you were never going to listen to me and you’d have created more problems for me, that way. So I decided to do this via e-mail. I am not sure about what your reaction would be…but I just want to let you know, that WHATSO EVER your reaction may be, it is not going to change my decision or my mind. So please save both of us, the trouble and get along with it. I hope, this time you prove me wrong by acting maturely and respectfully. I wish you best of luck and health. May you get well soon and do excellent in your studies. Take good care of your health and your family. And stay happy and busy. I’m not yours. I will never be. I am no more there and I will never be. I’m gone. The sooner you accept it, the better for you. In the end, I will thank you for all your time, your energy, your favors …your gifts. Thank you very much. And also, I am very sorry for all the hurts and wrongs. I know how hurt you must be at the moment, but inshAllah you’re going to sail through. I hope you’re able to forgive me someday. I cannot give you anything else. So that’s it. Goodbye U. --- O emailed me this today. Sigh, need not to say more :) I've learned one thing for sure today, somethings just happen, for a reason which couldn't be foreseen. Goodbye, O. -U.