Thats how i love him ..


The Broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow
From stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

Not this time, like the prior. I order you to leave me. get outta this life.
Cause I've had enough. And this time I'm gonna close the door.
Plan to seal it tight, like never before.
Go! just fuckin go...
and take me with you. Cause there's nothing left for me here.
Don't ask me if i know what the future holds for us.
Cause i don't want to predict.
All i know is that we're going to make it beautiful together.

Yes, i don't know what the future holds. If I'm going to be alive tomorrow. If you're still going to love me. And not go after another woman. All i can do is hope that you'll be mine like you are right now. You've captured me, captivated me, like no other. So many I've seen, in fact the finest, but none as pure as you. Till this moment i sit alone in pitch wondering what i ever said, what did i ever do, how i ever fell in love with you. Maybe it was the enticing look, that pleasurable smile, or the way your hair fall on your forehead. Like keeping it from the world and guarding it for me. Its meant for my eyes only. You, my love, are my most valuable treasure, my most highest achievement in this lifetime and for however long I'm destined to live for you, my world.

This thing we have, i know it'll never change. I know i'll always have you. No matter what.
And that's exactly why i have the confidence to say that all those other guys are just as sexy, but you know how to use it, you keep me high on yourself for the longest time. Those dreams, were, and still are so real. I've felt it. I've felt the rush through my body so many times. I've felt my hormones racing at the speed of light and what makes that happen? just a single thought of you. Yes, that is all it takes. Your voice makes me melt to the ground *blush*. After all the shit that's happen, after all what i had been doing in my past life, you're still here. And it still feels right. We're not two people insanely in love. We're one. You complete me just like i complete you. You're my better half. This is the perfect story. The perfect drama. The perfect love. And you, the perfect guy. Me? carved into perfection by you. You're everything good in my life. My inspiration, my desire, my fire, one who keeps me going. One who kisses my tears away. My world. My universe.

Since i have been with you, i have been often told that i am not myself. That maybe, I've lost myself.
And i say that i have not lost myself. I have found everything that i ever wanted. Its not a loss. It's a very great gain. <3

7 love for me ..:

Zee said...

lovely! full of passion:) its how true love feels like:) its beautiful! i hope u hold on to your love forever:)

Nostalgic said...

Yeah, we're gointo make it beautiful together, InshAllah. And i hope, someday .. somewhere .. he reads this post for he never reads my blog :c

Abstractor! said...

he does, i just talked to him :D

Nostalgic said...

haha, really?

Abstractor! said...

yes, you don't believe me huh? :/

Nostalgic said...

No, i don't believe the fact that he was really here, reading my posts =D

Sana Safeena said...

Aw, whoever he is should read this someday for it explains every little emotion beautifully, you should ask him to read this if he usually doesn't read :)
Good luck with your future life.

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