Here i stand on my own..

here i am and i don’t wanna cause you pain,
here i stand, alone and on my own again

i could never really understand the lyrics in trance songs. i mean, they aren’t really great, but they sound just right sometimes.

the sun set leaving behind a low today. and i picked up that low and brought it home with me.

You made me smile today
You spoke with many voices
We traveled miles today
Shared expressions voiceless

But you made me cry. you made me feel so alone. You left without anything to help numb these feelings. you’re cruel, i understand why you had to go but I am tired of understanding. it’s tiring being grown up and understanding everything. being rational. being responsible. aren’t you tired? i know you are, your voice tells me so.
it tells me so.

there isn’t anyone to my left or my right, but when i look back i see unknown people, and i follow people whose faces i never end up seeing.

she believes you exist beside her, even though it’s thin air.
she really does.
she hears you long after the call has ended
she imagines so.

but sometimes she believes the others who tell her things like this aren’t ever real. today is just one of those days.