Okay people .. i am feeling sick to the throat right now. I don't understand what life actually demands? After all the pains, depression and sorrows i have been experiencing in my past for whatever and whomever, i learned to move on and i somehow managed to. And i'm thankful to Allah, my parents and of course H who held my hand throughout, they are my real strength. They helped me getting over O. I assured myself that there was no logical answer to my queries, no explanation to why he left me .. i freaking moved on.
Now, why on earth the past has to show up again? I never wanted to hear a word. Not even a good bye!! I am just so weak now .. tired.