I have come a long way since our companionship ended. And I have many admissions to make. I gave up the lofty ideals I saw in you. I admit I have stooped down to come to the world’s terms – the crooked, wicked, blotted world. And there’s nothing to inspire me. The grandiose example, your example, has faded gradually into the annals of past and I have grown a set of my own principles, none which I could pride myself with. If you were here, I have no doubt your presence alone would have sufficed as an inspiration to keep my course. But now that you’re not, I have nothing to hold on to. I sway from dislocation to dislocation and my life has turned an anachronism. There’s no definitiveness, nothing certain about me – and even when the banality of my ways appalls me in my lone moments, I can’t give it up now. There’s no will left in me to desire for a change. I’ve simply accepted things as they are. I just hope in this lifetime or next, wherever we meet or howsoever we meet, you’d understand.
Behind the curtain..
- Rooj Siddiqui
- I believe that it's the ordinary that is so distinguished. I am only an amateur who sees the mundane with a twist. Goes around putting titles on self-perceived moments as life goes on by...
11 love for me ..:
Oh...the post looks so tragic...come on..chill...life has to move on...everything will be fine after sometime;-)
So you're accepting how everything is?
Aren't you still going to work for something or another?
Took me a while to get there..
Owww :(
Why so serious? And so sad?
But if writing this helped you get it out of your system, even a little, then it's worth it!
Take care
*tons of hugs*
loving your template :) and put the thoughts that bother you aside, let's dwell in happy thoughts!
:[ I know how this feels...I hope youre doing ok dear..
u kno people wid a beautiful smile shud nevr b sad :)
im sure dis is just a phase Inshallah. heartbrks happen to evryone bt d gud thing is 2 yrs down ull find sum1 els n dis whole situation or even dis write up for dat matter wil appear hilarious den.
so get to d odr side real soon n dazzle evryone by bein d wonderful person u r :)
Hope writing abt this here made u feel better...quite agree with BB up there.
yes, life moves on as someone said above though the past pokes us once in a while everyday when someone was really close to you, this pain comes coming and going and it happens I don't know till when.
but it slowly fades.
definitely, writing this out was a relief.
take care
hug
Aww .. take care sweets <3
i could give you a whole morale lecture on this. pick out every line from this post and tell you where in that line the inspiration you need hides. but then that would be pointless. so here's a line to start with.
look inside. you will find your light.
that comes from someone whos been through worse. trust me. its easy as shit once you get started.
I believe that there will always be someone in everyone's life who'd make the world bend to meet the terms of his/her loved. And then, you would not require to accept the world as it is, but help him architecture him in what you've desired it to be.
Examples and benchmarks are always beaten in their own game. Better ones emerge, are not born.
Cheers,
Blasphemous Aesthete
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