Final Goodbye - From O.

U,

I had thought I would have sufficient words for this e-mail. But now
when I’m putting them down, I find myself blank. I’ve decided not to
beat around the bush, not to play with words and just be direct and to
the point.

It is over…everything we had for last one year. After having thought
about each and every little aspect of my and your life, I’ve finally
come up to the conclusion that there is no “us”. We are never going to
make a sound life together. We are too different to understand each
other. I’m writing this e-mail in all my senses and I take complete
responsibility of my words here. So please, do not take it as a joke
or something that I would declare afterwards, meaningless. I mean each
and every word of it.

If you ask me if I love you or not…I would say I never knew what love
was. I still do not know. And I guess, I do not believe in it. I
misunderstood, misjudged and misspelled my feelings for you, to be
love. It wasn’t love. I do not love you, U. I can never love you.

I tried to get along but you are not my kind and I am not yours. I can
never be happy with you which, would eventually make both of us
unhappy. There is no chance of us being together…so please let go and
try to forget me.
I suggest, you should agree to whatever your mother asks of you. She’d
be delighted and content, and so would you be. And mark my words…five
years from now, you’d be laughing over all this.

I just hope this time, for the first time in your life, you’d act
maturely. There is no use of running after me because let me assure
you that the more you’re going to run after me, the more I’m going to
run away from you. I hope you’d understand me this time and will not
create any problem for me or for yourself.

Please, do not try to find me or contact or do anything stupid. This
would be the only thing I’d ask from you, in return of whatever good
I’ve ever been to you. I’ve already had enough and now I want peace in
my life. And you’re going to ruin it if you try anything stupid. Plus,
you’re not going to change my mind or for that matter, change anything
by trying to contact me or being persistent.

U, at last I would once again tell you…it is over! And I want to
be very clear in this regard. There is nothing left between us. I do
not have anything in my heart. All of my feelings have vanished or
faded away.

I do not regret anything that I wrote in this e-mail. I mean it. I’m
not angry or mad at you. I’m very cool and calm at the moment. I
wanted to do it on phone. But I have experienced it earlier as
well…that you were never going to listen to me and you’d have created
more problems for me, that way. So I decided to do this via e-mail.
I am not sure about what your reaction would be…but I just want to let
you know, that WHATSO EVER your reaction may be, it is not going to
change my decision or my mind. So please save both of us, the trouble
and get along with it.

I hope, this time you prove me wrong by acting maturely and respectfully.
I wish you best of luck and health. May you get well soon and do
excellent in your studies. Take good care of your health and your
family. And stay happy and busy.

I’m not yours. I will never be. I am no more there and I will never be.

I’m gone.

The sooner you accept it, the better for you.

In the end, I will thank you for all your time, your energy, your
favors …your gifts.
Thank you very much.

And also, I am very sorry for all the hurts and wrongs. I know how
hurt you must be at the moment, but inshAllah you’re going to sail
through. I hope you’re able to forgive me someday.

I cannot give you anything else.

So that’s it.

Goodbye U.

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O emailed me this today. Sigh, need not to say more :) I've learned one thing for sure today, somethings just happen, for a reason which couldn't be foreseen.

Goodbye, O.
-U.