You deserve better.

You deserve better from me;
you deserve all the answers
but sweet human,
I'm still asking questions.
Bury me where no one else will go;
forget the sugar-coated regurgitation
about lavender love that shines like gold.
Everything you do will be hard
or will make you that way.
Redemption comes with how you choose
to present and overcome those things.
It is a tough world
that only hardens more with time
and you deserve the raw truth
about the things in this life
that are bound to hurt you.
We are but molecules.
A spirit confined by the walls of skin;
peasants in a king's game,
angels with a destiny before them
to sin, to sin, oh do we sin.
Even so, you deserve better from me.
I deserve better from you.
I am merely a soul journeying
until my clock ticks no more,
and god dammit i vow to give
shades of what this life really is
even if that means entering a war
with myself to speak only absolutes.


You deserve better from me as someone who decides to place their thoughts on paper. You deserve to know not just the good parts but the ones that make you hit your knees. You deserve more than cliff notes and cookie cutter reads. I vow to you now, beautiful ones, that i will speak about what hurts and breaks me; redemption in the eyes of the troubled, because when this world falls silent what do all of the labels really mean? It is a fine night in December and I have never felt more free..dancing on the graves of what is original to speak truth, hard truth, straight to humanity and the love carved by us.

Stay ?

I cannot ask you to love the darkest parts of me;

There will be bad days..

and you won't always be able to save me

from them, and i need you to know that's okay;

that's not what i need from you.

I only ask that you know they will always pass,

and I shall be here.

And I will love you with all of me..

I promise there's a light in me;

bright and pure; 

and it belongs to you, only.

I just ask one thing;

let the way I love you define me and help me do it better. 

Lost and Found.

Its as if the only reason i don't want to hear from you when I'm mad about any and everything is because a second of hearing your voice would bring the biggest smile to my face and i'll be all fine.

It's the reason why I don't call you hundred times in a day when i'm finding a million reasons to be mad at you because you make them fly away.

But i just want to savor a little of that anger. Because it makes us human and i want to savor all of the rest of my time listening to you.

And that love, makes you my contradiction.

Every Tomorrow !

I
would have given myself
to you one hundred yesterdays ago,
if it were in my power.
I'm sorry you had to wait so long,
but i promise,
I never stopped searching, and
believing you were out there..
I always felt your light,
even when the world was dark.
I always felt this love for you,
burning in my chest.
All I can give you now,
is everything I've become,
today,
tomorrow,
and everyday hereafter.
I love you.
Now.
And eternally.
This fire burns,
for you,
and no one else.
All I can give you,
is every tomorrow,
and I hope that can be enough ..

To The Man I Want To Marry ..

Promise as good as you will be to me
you will be even better to this world,
Know I do not see you for who you have been
I see you for who you are,
for who you're becoming every day..
Fight a hard battle
with what is worth challenging,
Do not cower with fear to what life can bring,
do not run from trial..
do not give into the gloom of winter,
when right around the corner comes spring.
Believe in something greater than we are,
not that it is easy, but because it's hard,
May you forever find new places
of this universe you love
and pieces of you built within.
Never let anything, not even love,
keep you from them.
Look at the stars for what they are..
instead of how they are painted.

This world is yours.
My heart is yours.