Thursday, May 30, 2013

I'm exhausted, my love..


Would you still have me, bare of my pretensions and without the masks I wear? What when I rip open my heart, bare and crude to you, removed of all that’s been for the world to see and left with all that it’s actually been? Would your fingers slip away from mine as the facets of my containment crumble to reveal my ugliness?
And all that you've loved in me is gone in a wisp of a moment, And as my words resign me, will it all be stuck in the oblivion to crawl across a few feet and touch you? To touch you on your forehead and tell you how your dreams are a gilded shade of gold, the same way I've told you so often. When one cold morning, you look through me (oh I so wish!) and find a person so different, so ordinary and mundane that you want to distance, won’t you let a parting bye and a silent minute to our held promises and my lies?
I must say, love, that I fear it all.
And yet, I’m tired of being a captive – others’. My own self. Your captive.

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Of Love and Lust ..


By the dusky luminance of the slow evening, I tear off my restraints, one after the other, controlled and calculated. You fold the distance into a few steps and toss it out of the window. Lust hovers its wings upon us and blesses us with its relentless desire. And we dance to its tune, willingly. The fire in the hearth pales in comparison to the dense plumes of our insatiable yearnings, lingering along our bodies and sinking deep. The silence, so alert with uneasiness, freezes in that moment of infinity where I touch your lips and read the poems of winter in them with their coquettishly vagrant verses. You curve them in a smile and a shade of ivory looks through, scattered in a designed fashion, whispering tales of timeless enchantresses.
And I envy you, for being a being apart from my being. Your skin is a river of gold where I swim, and drown, voluntarily. In the dim pallor of winter nights, we dance, like a moth to flame, like a flame to moth. Our fingers entwine, and so do our words, more materially, more intricately. And we relish upon this prose of our passions, caressing every single letter and crafting new words with remarkable diligence and devotion.
The fire goes out but we turn the world alight with the heat off our bodies, with snakes of sweat lingering and entwining into random shapes. Our uneven breaths mingle into strangely coherent rhythms, one after another, held and withheld. And to this ungodly music, we sway under the naked eye of the yellow caricature of a late moon.
Every brush against the bronze instigates the serpents of pleasure which pour vials of a queer madness – and unto that madness, we devote our night while the seconds tread ever so slowly by our side. In our full arms, we carry our moments of fulfillment, intense and consummated; consummating. And when the culmination arrives, the world stops existing for a second, becomes still, vanishes and all that remains is us, you and me celebrating mortality without any wish for anything holier or godlier. Then it all turns into an uncontrollable contour of colors and ecstasy; sheer ecstasy.

Separation.





I know our fate is separation,
but until my last breath...
I will search for my sweet love,

I will seek my home.