Birthday is here :D

Tadaaaa :D

So finally, my birthday is here. Shara-lalala. Oh yes, i'm excited and looking forward to many (okay, at least 3) surprises and a mastt party!

Hang on, why am i happy? Its the last year of my teens :/ i just turned 19 .. i don't wanto grow up!

I am going to post tomorrow with all the details :)

Love ya'll! xoxo

I need to shop :(

Isn't it wow-full ?! I so want a yellow hang-bag or clutch. Its been ages i have shopped for myself and its killing me now. KAL PAKKA MEIN SHOPPING JAUNGI - if my tough schedule permits me doing so ..

Birthday in 11 days exactly :D oh yes, i am excited. I want wishes from all of you so that i could carve it forever :) .. This is going to be my last year of teens. I am growing old. Eff no :( my teen life has been so fanfuckintastic and i wish to re-live it all .. If only!

                            

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Last night i called H in the mid of my sleep. I don't know how but i do that a lot :/ neeend mein pagal hoti hun shayad ..

Me: Hey baby .. (almost a whisper)

H: Hm .. zzzzzzzzz (snores)

Me: I just want you to know iloveyou ..

H: Zzzzzz - haan, i'll go tomorrow at 8 sharp. Ab kya jaan logi meri.

o-0 ..

Me: No baby .. you may sleep now.

H: What on earth am i going to tell him now?

o-0

Me: Sleeeeeeeep baby.

H: Better. Zzzzzz ..

Men, crazy species :p i sweaaaarrrr!

WW - This Moment ..

We have only this moment,


sparkling like a star in our hand...


and melting like a snowflake.


Let us use it before it is too late.

- Marie Beyon Ray

You are needed and wanted. Here. And forever

Images that linger
Deep within the mind
Bit of verse we cherished
Once upon a time.
Through the musty hallways
Of the days we knew
Ever comes the vision
Beautiful and true.

Craving peace ..

I want to be somewhere I am not,
I want to run some place I don’t know,
I want to sleep in peace and have no dreams,
I want to vent my grief in a torrent of tears.

I have the right to be happy, they say.
What do they know and why would they care?
There are some things in life that are not meant to last,
But it won’t protect you from the ghosts of your past.

Sometimes I wonder how we waste our time,
We eat, we sleep, we work, and we lie.
We don’t say the things that really matter,
We make everything worse instead of making it better.

I lose myself in this world of shadows,
I miss those days when I could see rainbows.
I don’t know if I should open this door,
I don’t know where to go anymore.

I am confused, I am alone, and cold,
The world is so big, and I am so small.
And I lost my way; I am at a crossroads,
I close my eyes, and my world explodes.

Believe it or not?

What Goes Around - Comes Around ...

I have a firm believe on this. And i pity at those who think they could be an ass with others and apparently, be contented and peaceful all their life. Haah.

So, i am here, waiting to see you fall and break into pieces and yet not getting any shoulder to cry on. Oh please, do. Do that soon.

WTH =/ ..

Okay people .. i am feeling sick to the throat right now. I don't understand what life actually demands? After all the pains, depression and sorrows i have been experiencing in my past for whatever and whomever, i learned to move on and i somehow managed to. And i'm thankful to Allah, my parents and of course H who held my hand throughout, they are my real strength. They helped me getting over O. I assured myself that there was no logical answer to my queries, no explanation to why he left me .. i freaking moved on.

Now, why on earth the past has to show up again? I never wanted to hear a word. Not even a good bye!! I am just so weak now .. tired.

Period.